i lost my phone.
on my way going from a coffee shop to a building next door, it disappeared.
i wasn't even in a hurry! what the heck!
it happened so effortlessly that all i could do was laugh.
i came home and told my roommate, and she noticed that i was BEAMING.
apparently i was really ecstatic about this loss.
i honestly all of a sudden felt so light and free.
i never want a phone again.
it was actually quite surprising and hilarious how much burden i felt lift right off my shoulders.
i have been entirely enjoying the past 3 days and 3 nights with no way of communicating except for real life.
its interesting how much i've had to trust.
to trust that a friend will show up when we've planned to,
to trust that even though i'm not getting calls, that people still like me,
to trust that when texts and calls go into a black hole....it will be okay. (i got scared yesterday that since i'm not replying or calling back--- WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK I HATE THEM. such an interesting fear.)
along with trust, there's the opportunity for surprise.
today i went to my favorite and now DAILY place to drink coffee and read: busters.
i would normally call jen to see if wanted to come.
but took the lack of a phone as a sign to just be there with just me.
then guess who showed up.
I KNOW! we screamed and sat in amazement at how our lives could randomly connect even when we didn't try. to let God be nice like that was so, nice.
over the weekend i found myself being so aware of time. or....unaware of time.
my roommate wanted to do this little photoshoot of cosmo and i, and i had just gotten out of the shower so my hair was wet and i had no makeup on and it felt so raw and beautiful and like time stood still.
no phone.
a way of waking up to the present moment instead of constantly trying to be somewhere else.
and yeah i'm avoiding getting a new one as long as possible. so far i'm still alive, business is still alive, photos are still being taken, food is being eaten, friends are still alive, cosmo is alive...... ETC. who knew.
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one of my favorite posts by you, EVER.
i resonate with these thoughts so much and love being forced to have only REAL LIFE face to face conversations. love love love having no phone.
two fav lines:
(10.17.11 @ 02:38 PM)"no phone. a way of waking up to the present moment instead of constantly trying to be somewhere else."
"i have been entirely enjoying the past 3 days and 3 nights with no way of communicating except for real life."
I often want to throw my phone away or at least take a break from it. You always inspire me.
(10.17.11 @ 02:47 PM)i secretly loved it when my phone broke. i experienced these same things!
(10.17.11 @ 03:00 PM)this is so counter-cultural...beautiful how you are learning to embrace each moment as it unfolds...discovering so much freedom in letting go...enjoying the gifts of each day...i love how you walked right into this & haven't looked back...with Katie, I am inspired ... & smiling right now!
(10.17.11 @ 03:40 PM)This is an inspiring tale, but also makes me feel woefully fearful, now that just four days ago, I entered my first steps into the world of smartphoning.Others are already rejecting the world I have so little knowledge of yet! I feel behind the times.
And you and cosmo are the cutest.
(10.17.11 @ 04:50 PM)i love leaving my phone and bags at home and going places completely empty handed... so free. This is a great post. love you.
(10.17.11 @ 08:17 PM)oh and who needs phones anyway now? we have no shortage of ways to communicate simply through this crazy thing called the internet that so often sucks the life right out of us.
(10.17.11 @ 08:21 PM)What about getting a landline? That's all I have. It's beautiful. It takes messages. It's there when you get home. But when I'm out and about I'm there with just me, just a paper and pen in case someone wants me to take a note about something.
(10.18.11 @ 07:25 AM)What about getting a landline? That's all I have. It's beautiful. It takes messages. It's there when you get home. But when I'm out and about I'm there with just me, just a paper and pen in case someone wants me to take a note about something.
(10.18.11 @ 07:27 AM)Losing your phone is TOTALLY the best. :)
(10.18.11 @ 11:43 AM)I have dreams about giving up my cell phone. My fiance wants me to get the new iPhone, but I think my subconscious is secretly resisting this.... I kind of think that if people can finally get a hold of me via e-mail while I'm out and about, then there's no hiding anywhere.
(10.18.11 @ 01:46 PM)one of my favorite posts.
for about 3-4 months i would only use my phone in my studio. when i left - the phone stayed. made me feel SO GOOD. now i am not so freaked out about people being able to contact me. i feel in control. the phone doesn't control me. but maybe i will need another phone fast in the future.
LOVE YOU.
(10.18.11 @ 05:39 PM)I love how much trust and joy you are experiencing with the loss of your phone. I hope I am the kind of person who can have those qualities whenever I am without the things I assume I depend on.
(10.19.11 @ 02:57 PM)J.e.a.l.o.u.s. I HATE phones. And, as a result, I generally don't answer calls and avoid calling back as long as possible. I'd much rather just meet in person or over email. Email, well still annoying and time-consuming, doesn't seem to be nearly as obtrusive as a phone call. :) So, just wanted to let you know, I'm kinda in awe and totally jealous of you.
(10.19.11 @ 03:34 PM)